Monday, 15 June 2015

Thoughts

Its'e been about two months since I last posted and so, so much has occurred. I was done with exams, celebrated, shopped, ate, slept, stoned, found a job, started work and received results (they weren't good). Despite all these, I have yet to take a break, to be truly in touch with myself and to learn to enjoy solitude. I've been craving for company because I feel empty, I feel lost, I didn't set a direction for myself, I still don't know what I really want for myself - be it career, relationships or my future. Des had also gone to Japan for his grad trip (back in sunny Singapore already) and although he didn't say it, he cut short his trip and didn't go to Korea largely because of me. I feel absolutely remorseful and super guilty that he traveled back alone because I threw a tantrum. I'm also enormously thankful for the kindness, patience and love that he has shown me, and is showing me. I've never been luckier and more blessed to have someone who loves me unconditionally, yet I have to admit, I take him for granted sometimes. This bad habit, I have to kick. I promised him I'll try.

I've been wanting to write something ever since finals ended, but I was just really lazy to do so, and tonight, I finally sat down and began to type. This is not gonna be another long post, so I guess, I'll stop here. Photos of food and people (mostly food) will be up in my next post soon (I hope) cause I'm just too lazy.. For now, it's just goodnight.

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